The Gym… and Me in it…

Today I went to the gym. Actually today was day 2(!) of my gym adventure. I must say that although I would like to take the credit for my health kick decision… well I can’t. My VERY annoying husband can take about 80% of the credit… the other 10% can be given to my life long friend (who bribes me with gossip and time with her children- works every time!) … and the last 10% is ME. I would like to point out that I HATE THE GYM. So the fact that there is ANY percentage that can be credited to me… is WELL A LOT!

Part of this whole new gym thing is to get healthy. It’s not a new year’s resolution… it’s just a health kick the hubby and I are in. We have to get healthy for ourselves, for our families and for our future children. Although we are not COMPLETELY out of shape or obese… we could use some “shaping up”; specially since going upstairs in our townhouse feels like a chore!

I must say that I feel good about this newfound “activity” that I have. You see I’m going through a somewhat different body transformation, and I have yet to get to know… my body. This may not make sense to some of you but its kinda like a cleanse… without all the colon pills and irrational diets. Basically I am watching what I am eating, I am trying not to put garbage in my body… in the form of modern medicine or horrible foods (although I MUST admit, and only because my husband is reading this… I haven’t fully accomplished the food part). Part of this plan is to prepare myself for the rest of my life and the plans that I have for our family. The plans that I have for this year.

Doing this has brought to my attention that some things we cannot control. Which leads me to this: I AM A CONTROL FREAK, there I said it. With this body thing, and with most other things in my life, I want to be able to say that I have control over the situation. With this whole body planning thing I do not have control. I can watch what I eat, I can exercise, but I can’t get my body to do what I want it to do… and I have to admit, this is sometimes a bit frustrating. So this “waiting” time in my life is teaching me many lessons.

Wanna know what they are??? (I KNOW YOU DO!)… And I LOVE lists!

* I have to have patience

* I have to let some things “just be”

* I do NOT have control over everything

* My life is great just the way it is

* I have to have patience

* Oh did I tell you that I have to have patience?

OK so maybe I’m still learning about those lessons. Maybe I am dealing with a bit of denial regarding the lessons I may have omitted in this post. Maybe this is going to be harder than I thought! WISH ME LUCK!!!

Until next time…

Your friendly neighborhood SuperWife…

4 comments January 13, 2010

Resolutions… and stuff…

So I got to thinking… and there are some things that need to be resolved…

This time of the year a whole bunch of people are blogging about resolutions… and while I have MANY things that I need to resolute (yes I used THAT word on purpose) this blog post will not be a list of how I need to loose weight, of how many times I will be going to the gym or how I should stop shopping all the time (all of these things would be beneficial and are on my list by the way).  This post will be about determination. This is NOT a resolution but a change of lifestyle all together.

Today, at the end of December, I find myself wanting to kinda sorta change ME. You see as an only child I learned to fill the void (of only child-ness) by welcoming all sorts of relationships into my life. I am the girl that will befriend everyone. I always wanted to be everyone’s friend. I would always find common ground in conversations. I didn’t express any negative or different opinions in order to not hurt people’s feelings. My feelings would kinda get hurt when I would feel like I tried my best and people didn’t notice. I am the girl who gives 120% in every exchange. I am also the girl that gets disappointed a good chunk of those times. As I was told today sometimes I ‘over expect’ from my interactions. In other words, I am overly emotional, mushy and girlie and before coming to this realization I couldn’t wait to give all of that to the world.

Anyway enough of me and more of my determined resolution. I’ve decided to go with the flow. By that I mean the simplest of things. I’m done giving 120% to strangers and acquaintances because I have realized that the people that I have in my life are ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS. While I knew this already (really they are AWESOME) I have come to the realization that my immediate family is small, but it is amazing. All of this time I was so busy trying to please everyone, I was so busy trying to find my next best friend that I didn’t focus 120% of my energy on those people that love me unconditionally. I was so busy trying to be accepted by my classmates as a good student, by my co-workers as a good supervisor(y) figure, by the cashier at the supermarket as a good customer that I missed THE FACT THAT MY PEOPLE THINK I AM AMAZIIIIIIIINNNNNNGGGG. Why would a girl need ANYTHING ELSE?

So… I will continue to be kind to strangers and I will be continue to be a good worker BUT I will no longer be giving strangers, coworkers or anyone outside of my fantabulous family my ‘everything’. My vow is to re-shift my focus. After all I have always wanted to be a housewife. While I cannot do that (need money… for survival purposes) on a full time basis I can do it during every second of my spare time. What stopped me before was the fact that I spent the majority of my time either at school or at work… but now that I don’t have school I can actually revise my entire schedule so that I can attend to my home more often… and it FEELS GREAT. Now I will not be rushing against the clock to spend time with my husband, but instead I will spend my time preparing OUR home for when he arrives from work. Now I will have the time to set the table, cook a great meal (or start learning how to do that), to organize our movie collection. I will focus on visiting my parents every monday and tuesday when they are off from work and spend those afternoons with them. I will focus on going home, blogging, reading, getting to know the ME that doesn’t need outsiders to define me.

So 2010 will be a year of growth. It will be a year of devoted dedication to my husband, my mother, my father. It will be a year of treasuring the friendships I already have. A year of being comfortable in my own skin. It will be a year of kindness, of compassion, of devotion and most importantly of LOVE. It will definitely be a year of NOT compromising who I am, but letting who I am shine through… it will also be a year of giving my fabulosity ONLY to the people who DESERVE IT.

After a resolution like that one… it’s kinda difficult to have room for others, don’t you think?

ps. Superman says… “I’ve been telling you this for 6 years now!” <~~~ look at him trying to take all the credit for my enlightenment! HUH!

Until next time,

Your friendly neighborhood SuperWife.

1 comment December 31, 2009